In Two Minds

Blogsville, a lot has been happening to me but I was shying away from discussing this on the web but now I think am about to go bonkers. A year plus ago I started to date a guy called E, we dated for about 13 months and out of those 13 months it was obviously sweeter and better in the beginning, around july last year, he rented a place because initially he was living with his cousin and girlfriend who later became his wife and so he moved and when he was moving, obviously I helped and assisted.

The saga then started because once he started to live alone, his freedom started and due to the fact that he lived in the north of England, I could only see him at the weekends. Then he started to two-time, three-time, quarter-time and what not but I had no concrete proof. His birthday last year was when I knew, he loves to flirt so I read no meaning to many of his phone calls but last year I knew because he left his phone at home and was so sure I was not going to go through the phone. I have come to realise that for me to have a longer life, I ignore going through a bloke’s phone because whilst am there drowning away in my misery the man would be there snoring away and he knew that but when I went through the phone and the voicemail I realise that ole boy was a proper player o. He had told the other chicks that he was going away to Dublin to see his brother that had a baby and he called the babes from the so called Dublin with private no and he had said he would spend his birthday night with her. So me I jejely put the phone back where I saw it, pretended like nothing had happened and was waiting to see how he was going to perform that trick.

Anyways to cut a long story short he was going to drop me off at home at that time, me I kunkun refused o, he was so angry but we ended up in his uncle’s house instead so that was the saga for a while o, we now started to fight non stop. He came to see my parents who did not like him, apparently they had gone to pray and they said he was not the one.

Anyways we broke up this year o around January time, he called me around my birthday time to give me gift which I stupidly collected and since then bobo has been chasing me he wants me back, his parents called non stop from 9ja saying they have gone to pray and that we are good together. I have changed my phone number, he calls me at work, turned up unexpectedly in my church and work, I have stopped going to that church, it has been more than 6months and he refused to give up. I told him I was pregnant for someone else, he said he will take the baby and raise it as his own. I don’t want to call the police but I am now so confused, his family members called me to beg on his behalf even as far as swearing on their children’s life that once we pray together whatever the problem is would go. I myself fasted and prayed and knew that he was not the will for my life.

Can anybody help me on what to do? I don’t want to get the police involved, yesterday he still called me and begged me that he would love me forever told him I am seeing somebody else, he said he would wait for me and if it does not work out with that person would I date him back. I said tohim he must be mad. Which kind hot yeye love this one be, love that was uncaring before now became hot love.

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp.

The Best Day Of My Life

Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever! There were times when I wondered if I would make it to today; but I did! And because I did I'm going to celebrate!Today, I'm going to celebrate what an unbelievable life I have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make me stronger.I will go through this day with my head held high, and a happy heart. I will marvel at God's seemingly simple gifts: the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds. Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice.Today, I will share my excitement for life with other people. I'll make someone smile. I'll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone I don't even know.Today, I'll give a sincere compliment to someone who seems down. I'll tell a child how special he is, and I'll tell someone I love just how deeply I care for them and how much they mean to me.Today is the day I quit worrying about what I don't have and start being grateful for all the wonderful things God has already given me.I'll remember that to worry is just a waste of time because my faith in God and his Divine Plan ensures everything will be just fine.And tonight, before I go to bed, I'll go outside and raise my eyes to the heavens. I will stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon, and I will praise God for these magnificent treasures.As the day ends and I lay my head down on my pillow, I will thank the Almighty for the best day of my life. And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectation because know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life, ever!

Shalom

Anger is not worth the price you pay for it

Transform it instead into positive results. Despair will only keep you stuck where you are.
Choose to exchange it for a good dose of inspiration.
Arrogance will cut you off from the world. Cast it away and replace it with generosity and enthusiasm.
Impatience only brings you mistakes and frustration. Let it go and let peaceful purpose take its place.
For every burden of your own creation, there is an alternative that will lift you up. When you feel yourself being dragged down by the attitude you have chosen, let that be a reminder to choose a more positive approach.
You are in control of the way you look at life. And the way you look at life surely and inevitably determines the way your life will be.
My piece for the day..

Today

Today is life-the only life you are sure of. Make the most of today. Get interested in something. Shake yourself awake. Develop a hobby. Let the winds of enthusiasm sweep through you. Live today with gusto.
Dale Carnegie
Remember happiness doesn't depend upon who you are or what you have; it depends solely on what you think.

Wow, another week, another drama.

So much to talk about but will post on Friday night when am quite settled.

Freedom

I loved you yeah what the heck is the big deal,
I believed all that you said so what the heck is that new?
You thought yeah she is a gullible fool, what the heck am not the first and i won't be the last
You thought you were smart but you were actually dumb,
You felt that being a man made you the king of the world but you never knew you were the king of the greatest fool,
You trampled on my feelings, you thought well let me beat her black and blue and she would keep crawling back but what the heck, abused partners do the same,
But ol' boy u were the biggest fool,
all the time you gave me sob and sad stories about mama being in hospital i knew weren't true ,but made u feel like your lies were working,
All the times you attacked my confidence i let you because i was waiting for you to trip,
boy, u were not the best, u were a liar, a cheat and a rogue
Am happy that the little mouse that u felt could not talk was the one that threw ur sorry ass out on the street.
Keep telling people that am having an independence phase, carry on believeing that because boy i have moved on,
Please stop sending me flowers and making me have hay fever.
Omoboy, you were not the man, u were the sad sorry loser that i had pity on...
Read my lips, am not having u back and i will never have u back, keep on crying and begging till Jesus comes back, i will never take u back not to talk of revoking the divorce.

You were a silly area boy that i took pity on .

Am happy and i have moved on......

Stop bugging me........

Hmmmmmmmmmmmn

Help o, I have a this friend, who used to go to my old church and left when she moved home and since the borough is far from church she started going to a deliverance church, anyways she calls once in a while, anyway was returning back from a send forth party on Sunday o when my phone rang.
Conversation
Me: Hello Ebun
Ebun: O ga o Laughter, anyway call me back, me ni credit
Laughter: whatz up ore, could read the tension in the air or should i say unrest
Ebun: Laughter, everything fine o
Me: How are the bros o
Ebun; don't get me started o, the guy am seeing came over to my place 2wks ago and i said to him this one that u treat me and this relationship as 2nd wife, o ga o. She said he then said that well u r already in that group
Laughter: sho

Anyway to cut the conversation short, friend tells me that she has been dating bobo donkey for 18months and no sign of seriousness and that he said that he has a wife and children somewhere, na so becuz of that she no well. I then said to her Ebun, have you been to his house, she said no
No ke, I then tore into her i said you a child of convenant, a royal priesthood dating a guy for 18months and you don't know his house, is that how it is now? she said he pointed the house out to her but he has never invited her in, I then said to her, you know what? the truth is that you know that this guy is not free, how else would a man come, eat, drink and then go to promise land on you and then go back to wherever he crept out for without you not querying.
She said he called her back a week after to say he was joking when he saw how cold she was.

I understand the need for us to settle but not in the essence settle for less just for the sake of being called Mrs!!!! I was so mean because i was just tired of seeing men come together and call some women names like Mugu and co because they know we wan marry.

I said to her, i really don't blame him, i blame you, how can a guy in this day and age come and eat and then sleep with you without you entering his premises, she then go on to say her mum told her that a prophecy was said about her that she would marry a divorcee, i said well bobo donkey ain't no divorcee, and this is someone that is holy than thou.

I said take me for example the last person i dated begged me for 6months for me to come back but his attitude stunk when we were together and all that promises of change never got to me, she said ehn he promised her marriage, i said pleeeeeeeeeeeeease wake up and smell the coffee which yeye marriage be that, 18months, a child would have started talking by now.

I told her without mincing my words, you better let the bobo go and stop focusing on marriage and focus on yourself and ask questions about why did I pretty babe like me allow a man to enjoy my body without checking things out, she said she will call me back in 5minutes, errm it is now wednesday no calls.

I was so mad with her, why is that we women take a lot of rubbbish and even allow ourselves to be treated as the rubbish house without allowing her brain to kick in, yeah i was harsh but i did not want to sugar-coat the issue. Am tired of chasing for something when the bible categorically says he that findeth a wife, not she, yeah, yeah i know some women do it but abeg i no fit.

Don't get me wrong, i want to marry but not because of marriage come allow guy free rein over my body whilst dangling wedding ring infront of me like carrot abeg carry go.
Some girls make it easy for gals but why is that we good girls are the one that suffer the most.

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp o.

I Still Know Who She Is

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80s arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00. I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On examining it I saw it was well healed, so I talked toone of the doctors and got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while! As she is a victim of Alzheimer's disease. As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now. I was surprised and asked him, 'And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't knowwho you are?' He smiled as he patted my hand and said, 'She doesn't know me but I still know who she is.' I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm and thought, 'That is the kind of love I want in my life.

True love is neither physical nor romantic'